I recently saw this quote and I had to ask myself the question. I know what my strengths and weaknesses are. I also know that my work is good enough to, as I like to say, exist in the world (in more than the tiny way that it does). I want to license it, I want to write & illustrate kids' books, I want to do more custom work and sell my art & products. I've been painting for over 20 years. It's not that I haven't experienced success, in film/TV business and with my custom work and murals. It's just that I never really experience a breakthrough or gain the amount of exposure necessary to snap up the kind of projects I'd love to do. Am I not ready? Is it my own fault? I know I'm not alone in feeling like this and I look at other artists' work all the time and think damn! that's so great! I guess I ignore the really terrible and bland stuff out there (and there's a lot of it ;) I think I'm sometimes easily discouraged. I've never been a quitter, but I wonder how long I will simply strive for a new career, that in the end, exists as merely a hobby. I think, if I'm honest, I'll feel heartbroken. I could be in a weird mood, since I am pretty tired after some long hours on a couple of jobs this week. But, this comes up for me again and again. Sometimes, I'm just happy to paint and other times I walk through say, Anthropologie and think why can't I have work on tea towels, ceramics, fabrics...? I've really enjoyed taking Lilla Rogers MATS courses and connecting with other artists. It seems like every day, one or more of them are getting cool projects or an agent for representation and I wonder if that will ever be me. I have to start doing things differently and I have to stop living my life like it's a "dress rehearsal" (Yes, I get hooked on quotes!) I'm excited to participate in Lilla's Global Talent Search, starting next Friday and yet, I'm afraid that I won't get through the 1st round. It shouldn't matter so much. I need to push myself to get out there, regardless of how I size up in contests. I hope I won't always feel like an outsider. Ok, don't worry - I just needed to express some feelings today. I think frustration can too easily become part of your personality and it bores me. I am boring myself.
I'm about to go out and enjoy the nice weather and a lovely cocktail at Leyenda If you live in Brooklyn and haven't tried it, they serve up very tasty food and cocktails.
"After all... tomorrow is another day!" Scarlett - 'Gone with the Wind' / Though my favorite quote comes from Rhett "No, I don't think I will kiss you, although you need kissing, badly. That's what's wrong with you. You should be kissed and often, and by someone who knows how." ;)